By the time you read this, we would’ve celebrated the New Year arriving and have started a new journey of another 525,600 minutes. Yes, that’s approximately how many minutes there are in a year, crazy but true.
As I write this last column of the horrible 2013, a grey overcast pours itself into my small and at the moment, untidy room. I say horrible, because that’s exactly how it’s been. With the exception of a few amazing moments, 2013 I put my hands up and admit with no shame that I hated you! You were cold, you were wet and you showed no remorse. You made me cry probably more than any other year- and they weren’t good tears either. You were more unlucky than ever and you took away such precious and special people from me and so many others. I’ll be so glad to see the back of you that words cannot even begin to explain.
My dear readers, I don’t know how 2013 treated you or what dreams it shattered, but I what I do know is that whatever happens there is and always will be hope. Hope lives inside of each and every one of us. So even when you’re at your lowest and feel as though there’s nothing better coming your way, a little voice whispers “You’ll get through this, I promise..” and that right there- is hope. Without hope, none of us would get very far, because as hope speaks up each time we carry on, our strength hears and grows along with it.
Let me share a truth with you all, I haven’t ever celebrated New Year’s Eve at a ‘special event’, at a night-club, drinking so much that I can hardly stand or partying the night into the morning with friends. This year, my hope is to go into the New Year watching films, maybe even writing and be blessed with my family and loved ones around me and if not safe, healthy and happy.
I also want to take this opportunity in the last column of 2013 and first of twenty14 to say thank you. Thank you to all of you who were there to listen to me (near or far), thank you to all my loved ones who believe in me, motivate me and help me see there really are genuine people (you know who you are), thank you to those of you who pushed me away, made me cry and weren’t brave enough to tear down the walls I sometimes put up- you showed me exactly how I don’t want to be! Thank you to three small precious angels in my life- Tez, Tally and Ela, you are all incredible and I cannot thank you enough for making me truly smile every time I see you. Last but not least, a very big thank you to YOU, my readers, almost a year and half now and without you all I wouldn’t be motivated to carry on doing what I love, thank you so much!
Now I’m going to file this column, send it to my editor and have my last brunch of 2013 so till then (by the way it’s pouring with rain now),
I wish that this journey of
525,600 minutes,
365 days,
A dozen months
& One year, is exactly how you want it to be.
Blessings and love,
Ceylan
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